Beatitude Adjustment

I don’t know what I believe. I was raised Roman Catholic. I think I stopped believing in God before I stopped believing in Santa Claus. I don’t actively recall a time where I believed in God, but I do remember the Christmas that I asked if I could setup the camcorder to catch Santa on his way out of the fireplace. If I do believe in god, it is certainly not the god I was raised to believe in, so where does that leave me?